Facing big changes in life, the writer experiences a mix of fear and hope.
Despite dreaming of these changes, doubts and fears arise, leading to feelings of not working hard enough and experiencing impostor syndrome.
Reflecting on past experiences like buying an iPhone and feeling nervous, the writer ponders if fear is a defense mechanism against getting too comfortable.
Transitioning to a new role in an exciting company and project, the writer acknowledges the bittersweet feeling of leaving the familiar for the unknown.